9/30/2008

DRAMA!!!

You know what adds to a stressful situation?
A bad attitude.
Sure it's hard to put on a smile during crap times but it doesn't help a bit to bitch and bring the rest down to your level.
Tensions are high on the movie set I'm working on.
I've never worked with such dramatic people in my life. I'm not talking about the actors, they actually seem less dramatic than some crew members.
Two people have already got the axe and we only have 5 more days of shooting left.

In these stressful times with the current financial crisis and the presidential elections just around the corner you'd think that on-set movie drama wouldn't compare but I'm here to tell you this production is a condensed version of current affairs...and somehow I found myself with front row seats to it.

On a positive note, I'm getting great photos!!!!!

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9/29/2008

Misunderstood

I'm not sure people understand my life.

To me it's very simple.

I have a day job M-F 9am-5pm. I work in a cubicle shuffling papers and handling electronic financial reports.
After work I don't usually go home and prepare dinner for the kids, or veg on the couch watching prime time TV like many Americans.
Instead I go back to work on things that I love doing.
Art, Photography, Recording Music, and Writing, which I hope to make a living from so I can quit my day job once and for all.

So when coworkers come up to me at the day job and ask me if I saw something on TV, 95% of the time the answer is NO.

This weekend alone I was working on a movie set for a total of 27 hours between Saturday and Sunday. When you factor in eating and sleeping you have no time to watch TV or even hang out with friends.

It doesn't bother me that I'm always busy, but it drives me off the wall the fact that people don't understand the crazy hours I work.
I love that my friends want to see more of me and that they invite me to hang out but sometimes I feel like they don't understand that my schedule simply doesn't allow me much free time.

After the movie shoot schedule is over (this Saturday) I will have hours and hours of post production. I also need to finish a CD cover and art work for a singer songwriter I started a month ago. That, in addition to retouching some work I did for other clients, and making sure I prepare for the Sherry Vine/Francis Legge video launch party where I will raffle some of the photos I took of Sherry.

This of course means going back to the recording studio will have to wait. I only ask patience from my music producer. I can't wait to have a few tracks finish. I'm happy with the direction we are goin. Especially since I might be able to use the songs for a video project I was approached about. I think that will all start taking shape in 2009.

With all this work I might not make my self-imposed deadline of April 19th, 2009 to have the book I'm writing completed.

Often times I ask myself if all this work is really worth it. And time and time again I tell myself "Yes, yes it is."
I've seen great talent around me, much more talented than I, all my life but with little to no drive, no ambition. I don't want to be them, ever.
I have to keep working on reaching my goals.
Being stationary, settling, is never an option for me.

When I was younger my family was on food stamps. We picked up furniture from the streets. When people threw out their couch, night stands, etc me and my family picked them up and used them because we didn't have money to buy new furniture.
That's my past, but I don't want it to be my future. I want something better for me and my family.

To start, I want $2 million dollars in the bank. That's the price I've placed on my financial freedom. It makes sense mathematically taking into consideration how low maintenance my life really is. I could live a very humble life with $2 million for the rest of my life. And yes I've consider inflation but I have a plan for retirement which I'll have to tell you about another time.

With $2 million in the bank I could live a humble life doing public services and not have to worry about paying my bills. That's why sometimes I don't understand why Oprah needs soooo much money.

I wish I could stay and chat but I have to go back to work.

-A
ps - if anyone reading this wants to assist me with my photography, music, book, or simply do my laundry :-) let me know and I'll make sure you are well compensated ;-)

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9/26/2008

The Gayest Rapper EVER!

Remember Soce who won Sirus Radio Gayest Rapper Show Ever battle!

Well, check out his new video!

It's SOOOOOO GAY!

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9/25/2008

Center of the Universe

>Vote for Center of the Universe by Jarrah Gurrie

Click HERE to watch and vote.

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9/24/2008

Sirens



Listening to the sirens outside my window as I was getting ready to make a video. It turned out to be the video.

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9/23/2008

ACTION!

Checking in.
Did I tell you I've been hired to be the on-set-photographer for an independent film?
The hours are very very long.
I'm getting very little sleep.
But way more sleep than some of the other guys in the production team.
I don't think people realize how much work goes into making a movie.
It's an all day thing. from waking up at 4:30am to going to bed at midnight.

Today I won't be on set due to the fact that filming will take place during the hours I'll be at my day job.
Tomorrow after work I'll be hitting the set again.
And I shall capture some more movie magic...if I don't fall asleep with the camera in my hand.

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9/21/2008

Aids Bear Still Going Strong!



dear all,

the bear is alive and moved today to another person. its gisela sommer, one of berlins most famous drag queens. to make the bear feel most comfortable and to not let him forget where he is from, we organized the transition at a historic place in berlin: checkpoint charlie.

sorry for keeping the bear for so long, but he was not willing to leave my flat, so what could i do.


best

xxxjan

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9/18/2008

Welcome Home



I want to get into the habit of publishing blog posts from which others may benefit.

How can you benefit from learning that I took a few days off from work to visit the west coast for the first time?

Here's my advice. Sometimes you have to disconnect and go to a beautiful place far far away just so that when you return you can gladly hear the pilot say overhead, "Welcome Home."

I was in paradise for 5 days but I love it when I come back "home" to New York.

This city may be filled with lots of crap, but it's some really fine crap.

I'm really grateful to have had James provide me with such a wonderful opportunity. I would not have been able to go on this trip were it not for him.

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9/12/2008

Guten Tag Germany

Hello Adrian,
My name is Sophie and you have no idea who I am. I'm a 17-year-old student. I'm french and american and live in Cologne (Germany). I'm a freak, I love drawing, I hate my boyfriend. Enough about me.
I started reading your website about two years ago and I thought I'd write to you some day.. I stumbled on amnesiasparkles.com when I did a Dalí Google picture search (he's a genius). Anyway, I read what you wrote ever since,which was always fascinating, and I was really pleased when you started doing youtube videos (I actually discovered youtube through you- thank you).We have similar tastes.. at least, I think we do, I always agreed to what you wrote and was very inspired by everything you did. This must be so boring to read, I'm sorry. If you're even reading it,maybe you get so many Emails that you don't check before deleting spam or..whatever.
I just wanted to let you know somehow that you're great.A genius. In my opinion. You've saved me from depression about 80 times. You're still not as great as Dalí though ;) noone is.
I'm sorry. I don't know what I would think if someone wrote me this. I just did. Write it.
Keep up everything you do. Please.


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Hi Sophie
thank you so much for taking the time to write to me. It really means a lot to me.

You are the cutest!
I'm glad you like what I do. I know not everyone will like what I do so when I get nice emails like yours it really puts a smile on my face.

And yes, you're right I'm not Salvador Dali, he is amazing!!!!!!

thanks for the kind words though.


sending you much love

-Adrian L. Acosta

ps - I get depressed too. That's life, but it's moments like these, and people like you that help take my depression away. thank you for being you! hugs.

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9/11/2008

The Mask of Sorrow



There are many masks we wear: Masks such as those of a brother, a sister, a mother, and father, a friend.
Masks aren't always intended to hide something.
We all wear masks.
We have as many masks as people we meet: when they die so does one of our masks.
When we lose a mask, we lose a piece of ourselves, and it hurts.

Listen to Joseph Campbell, a man I respect tremendously, as he speaks of sorrow.

Recording Duration: 4:49
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Joseph Campbell: Sorrow.

Audio taken from Joseph Campbell and The Power of Myth with Bill Moyers


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9/02/2008

Daryck Monroe


"Heart over Head"

Full photo set clickHERE

Behind the Scene video


model: Daryck Monroe

clickHERE

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9/01/2008

Men at Work



did a shoot yesterday.
Daryck filmed the process.
more info on model coming soon.

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